Marco’s & Cirque du Soleil MJ Immortal

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Fri Jan 6 2012

My Yelp Review on Marco’s Coal Fired Pizza:

If the food here only deserves 4 stars (or higher depending on the day), the service surely kicks it up a notch to 5 stars. We were very happy to be helped by a non-judging waitress who kept her smile on after we only settled with water for drinks. When I placed the order, she didn’t try to remind us that may not be enough food, until I asked her, which I think is being respectful.

I picked what I thought was the only non-meat salad on the menu: Arrosto (I could be wrong, there might be others…) and it was gone in seconds. Everybody enjoyed it, it’s unusual in that it included both raw and cooked veggies. Off to a healthy start! Then the Manhattan pizza came, the last ingredient – pine nuts – intrigued me, and it turned out to be a fantastic choice. The chicken and basil interacted with each other very well. The second pizza: Sicilia, was recommended by the waitress. What an excellent suggestion! The meats (“Genoa Salame” and “Proscuitto Cotto”) had a nice shaved texture that kept them very tender and juicy. With Marco’s pizza, you can actually taste the freshness of the ingredient. You can also tell the crusts were entirely hand-made. These two important elements create pizzas that may not be loaded with flavors which trick your tongue and bloat your stomach, but rather, subtle after-tastes one can really savor.

The last thing we ordered was Lasagna. Now Lasagna, I do prefer it with a heavy sauce. Marco’s sauce is good, but it doesn’t remind me of Italian food. We still enjoyed it a lot and didn’t have any leftovers!

The best part was that they found out it was our first time here so we got a dessert – Nutella Pizza! – for free! I was curious about it but didn’t want to commit to a whole dessert pie, this was a perfect way for me to sample it. Not that memorable, something you can make at home. And the idea of having carbs for dessert scared me a little.

You really feel welcome at Marco’s, all the young waiters and waitresses are pretty good looking, and growing up in a big city in China, I’m used to restaurants being noisy. So to me, there’s nothing not to love about Marco’s!

一年多以前买的阳光马戏团MJ主题秀的票子今晚终于可以用了。不同以往的是场地居然在Pepsi Center!一般阳光马戏团的表演都比较小型,与观众亲密些。这次搞不好会更像演唱会哦。

在那之前当然要医饱肚子。从来很少带爸妈去什么高档的地方,老爸喜欢去大型连锁店,说食物质量有保证喔。这次挑的是一家在科州有两间分店的批萨店,曾获得当地杂志评全丹佛最好批萨!听说它还有个执照证明店里出产的都是正宗意大利薄饼的手工饼皮呢!

Marco’s Coal Fired Pizza是一家挺潮的店,却坐落在Downtown很古老的一栋楼里,呵呵,美国人就是喜欢这种风格吧。一进去感觉有点像回到国内,店里可热闹又喧哗了,可我们觉得很亲切享受,如果灯光再亮些,窗户再多些就更像了,哈哈。

开胃菜是沙拉,净是蔬菜,有生的也有熟的,我们看到就很高兴,很快盘子就空了。

跟快餐店必胜客等不同的是这里的批萨皮完全手工制作然后用木柴在窑子里烤成的:

新鲜至极!即使没有topping,干啃饼皮也是一大享受。这不是,叫的Lasagna (意大利千层面)里就有两块饼皮,蘸点烤茄汁,更有嚼劲:

我们当然还叫了两种不同的批萨:

第一个是我看中的,酱料用的是pesto(九层塔香蒜酱)而不是普通的批萨番茄酱。上面铺满了柠檬腌制的鸡肉,樱桃番茄,还有最出人意料的松仁!整个饼散发着果仁味,与众不同啊~

第二个批萨是服务生介绍的。酱料跟上面的千层面一样,上面铺了新鲜蘑菇,朝鲜蓟,和Proscuitto (意大利火腿薄片)。真的很薄,却很juicy,口感特别鲜嫩。

这家店的风格就是用料新鲜,口味清淡。不像别的传统批萨店,吃了一大堆饼和芝士,涨一个晚上。我们叫的三个主菜里都有芝士啊,还是好几种不同的呢。但它的量掌握得很好,都溶到别的食材里作为调味品之一了,至高境界啊~

Marco’s的Pizza绝对比千层面做得好。后者的pasta sauce还是太淡了点。不够绸也不够浓,下次不点就是了。

忘了说,这间的服务超好。我们什么饮料都没点,就要了白开水,服务生也没表现出失望。经理过来询问了两次,听说我们是第一次来造访,马上说送一个甜品批萨来我们这桌。太好了!看了菜单后就想试试这个Nutella Pizza(巧克力榛子酱甜饼),但又怕一晚上太多碳水化合物;现在有人白送,就吃一片尝尝呗!

跟咸批萨不同,这个甜品他们先把饼烤涨了:

然后剖开,在中间塞满金沙巧克力里最“正”的巧克力榛子酱,然后上面再洒白绵糖:

其实并没啥特别,自己在家也可以做,搞不好再上一勺雪糕让它润湿一下。哈哈!

吃饭花了不少时间,在Pepsi Center找到车位之后已经8点,show正要开始的时间。我气急败坏地穿着高跟鞋带他们满大街地跑,一路上听到MJ的音乐,倍感幸福。换票的时候出了些小问题,最后总算赶得及开场时分找到座位。

阳光马戏团的秀从没这么大场面过,一般是比较intimate的风格,这次因为是MJ主题的所以搞得比较演唱会化。我们实在坐得太远了,又没有大屏幕(集体秀没办法专著地把镜头只对准某人身上);为了增添摇滚气氛,当晚的喇叭开猛了,音乐实在太大声,好歌的意境被破坏了。

我认为最好看的就是他们把灯光用在衣服甚至人体上,还会像霓虹灯那样变颜色,时光时暗,可好看了。比如这张照片(不是我拍的)里:

红红绿绿的衣服中间和边上都有粗白线,就这样看实在不怎样,但是当舞台灯光被灭掉后,就只有那几条白带子在发光,勾勒出来的是MJ的线条,一眼就能看出来的!非常特别,是对他最好的致敬!

表演进行期间禁止拍照,我也只能在幕帐落下时快手按下一张。MJ头上的灯光就算做是光环吧:

更多专业照片可看这里

Snow Day Cooking

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FEB 3, 2012

礼拜五下大雪连班都不用上,在家就想做点什么好吃的。见橱柜里还有一罐南瓜蓉,决定用来蒸马拉糕,烤南瓜面包!两样都是以前没做过的,经验不足啊,好像都偏湿了。但是味道都还可以。蛋糕有椰奶的香味;面包烤的时候好香呢!就是有点粘牙。

Steamed Pumpkin Cake

Pumpkin Dinner Roll

有一样惊喜,午觉醒来后发现我期待已久的食谱到了,这书还是网上抽奖中的,让我好等啊!

Book won from Serious Eats!

 

下午妈妈做了蛋角,金黄的美味!还有梅菜蒸猪肉,很好的下饭菜。还是老妈对厨房的那些事比我在行啊!

蛋角

梅菜蒸猪肉

从西北到东南

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Mon Jan 16 2012

马丁路易节我放假,要一早到Golden看牙医。大头请假陪我,本来约好了陈蕾一同前往,办完事后游荡一下市中心,再去吃有名的中东菜阿里巴巴烤肉,谁知她最后一刻放我们飞机!只能立马改变计划,幸好大头很能迁就我,由着我的脾气想去哪去哪。

 

早上7点的牙医预约害我们空着肚子,搞定后我有一个大胆的想法:Golden在Lakewood的西北方,不如我们怀着兜风的心情,享受清晨阳光,驶到位于Lakewood东南位置的Greenwood Village里的The Original Pancake House去吃早餐!一直想再回到这个我觉得又远,又很一般的早餐点就是想尝尝传说中的Dutch Baby(荷兰宝贝甜煎饼;这里有对这家店和这道早餐的描写)。

 

 

好多人啊,真是兴旺的早餐店(我们离开的时候是10点左右,外面更是排满了赖床到现在才想起要吃早餐的人!)不过大部分都是白发苍苍的退休老人,还吃这么丰盛的早餐,罪过了吧!

 

心心念念想吃的Dutch Baby果然没叫我失望,看起来就像枕头一样软。跟平常的松饼不一样的地方是煮法。面糊的材料应该大同小异,普通的Pancake用煎的就可以,Dutch Baby是放在平底锅里现热两下然后再放进烤箱里烘烤,以至于两边会蓬松上涨,看起来让人更有胃口。这家店只提供原味的,可以搭配白绵糖和柠檬一起吃:

 

Dutch Baby

 

试过了就知道怎么一回事,其实电脑里存了很多不同Dutch Baby的配方,像是有香橙味的;回头买个可以放入烤箱的平底锅,自己动手弄!我点了个甜的,怎么也得给大头点个咸点。米国人的早餐最兴吃蛋啊,马铃薯之类的。Special菜单上有个Green Chile Eggs Benedict (墨西哥口味的火腿蛋鬆餅)。两个英式松饼,两个荷包蛋,外加牛油果泥,番茄碎,熔掉的芝士和带辣的酱,配烤马铃薯块儿: Green Chile Egg Benedict

 

不觉得有啥好吃。这么一盘下去不撑死才怪!所以我就小小尝了一点而已。上面的照片是大头的手机拍的。我手机拍的小了点,不过颜色更好看些:

 

其实这类早餐店到处都是,很多还开24小时的呢。OPH这么火有可能是因为全科州只有两间,而且它很大牌,每天只开到两点。我的话应该不会再想跑这么远的路回来了。

My Yelp Review on the Original Pancake House:

I’ve been here twice but I don’t think it’s speical enough for me to travel all the way from Denver to here. The first visit was a few years back so I don’t remember too much (if it was THAT special then I would). The recent second visit was because I really wanted to try a Dutch Baby and OPH is one of the few breakfast joints that serve that. I enjoyed it a lot but I was hoping there were more choices to pick from, like different toppings and even savory kinds. (There, that’d be a reason to come back if ever). My boyfriend got the Green Chile Egg Benedict from the Specials menu, average is all I can say about it. Our server that day, I want to say his name was Jerry, was such a nice kid, always had a smile on his face and very patient with us, even though they were super busy (by the time we left, there were lines inside and outside of the doors!) Their turn around time is quick, they have to, ’cause they only open till 2 every day. Could that be why the place is popular? I can’t think of something from Village Inn that wasn’t as good as OPH. And there are plenty of VIs that open 24 hours~

 

早上吃这么多,总得去运动消化一下。到健身房杀了一个半小时后,大头去看他的医生,我在那高楼里发现一个拍照相当理想的位置,赶紧用上照全景的功能把尽收眼前的地平线给拍下来:

 

这个是医院停车位之间的车道,我觉得形状非常特别:

 

天气预报说今天会下雪,果然,下午时分开始转凉,天上本来离我们很远的乌云也正在飘过来。但我们还是决定不管三七二十一,去The Melting Pot大唰一顿久违了的瑞士火锅,反正天越冷越适合打火锅!

 

Melting Pot这个店名是个双关语。大家都知道美国被称为a melting pot(大熔炉,意指什么样的外来人都有,是个十分多元化的国家)。瑞士火锅的特点呢就是采用易溶的材料,比如芝士啊,巧克力什么的。

 

从外面哪看得出来这是一家高级的餐厅?

 

入口的特点除了地毯,就是很想老式的国立图书馆:

里面好黑啊,老外喜欢的所谓“情调”;很多人喜欢情人节这天来,小两口躲在角落的一张双人台那卿卿我我,你煮给我来我喂你吃,轻声细语地说着情话。所以餐厅虽大(有2,3层)却格外安静。
  

又不能用散光灯,手机拍得真艰难:

 

在这吃饭预算好花个两小时吧。首先上来的是芝士锅,有4,5种不同选择。这次我们挑的是大头的最爱,类似于Spinach Artichoke Dip(菠菜朝鲜蓟车打芝士),配面包,青苹果,生红萝卜,西兰花和椰菜花(下方四格图左上)。其实呀,两个人吃完这么一锅Cheese,什么都饱了吧。这时候会上沙拉,让你“调节消化”一下:

 

 

如果沙拉酱是酸甜的那种还真有助于消化呢,或者就是不知怎的把胃再撑大了点,反正到时候你就准备好要吃汤锅了。真正算起来,瑞士的汤锅不够中国的火锅好吃。他们的那个汤本来就下了很多调味料来煮,食材也不外乎一些蘑菇,两个“鬼佬云吞”(下图绿色那些,里面裹的还是芝士,不同种的而已,晕!),几片三文鱼,两块牛/猪/鸡肉,还有一些虾。龙虾的话要另外加钱:

 

中国火锅就不同了,材料多,即使是用白开水来煮,到最后也能熬出一锅鲜美的汤底!

作为广东人,平常在家“打边炉”,我只要蘸姜葱就可以。看到Melting Pot里的各式蘸酱我也挺兴奋的,是不是很像调色板啊?服务生有告诉我们哪个酱配哪样东西,可我懒得遵从,每样一点放到盘子上最后搞混了一起吃更爽!(下方四格图右上)

 

一轮照啊吃啊我们可没闲着。最后按照习惯我问服务生拿了个碗和勺子想喝汤(他非常惊讶,难道老外打火锅都不喝汤么?)才抿了一口就知道怎么回事了,那汤咸得!完全无鲜味可言。还是比不上中国人呐!这也刚好让我更期待甜品 — 巧克力锅!也有4,5种选择,以前我尝过一个“黑白巧克力鸳鸯锅”,好看到差点没舍得吃:

这次点了个白巧克力香蕉肉桂锅(下方四格图右下)。服务生还给我们表演了一下怎么热锅的:

 

罪恶呀,已经是甜的不行的东西,猜猜放些啥下去“煮”?嗯,芝士蛋糕,棉花糖,草莓(这个还可以)和其他甜食(下方四格图左下)。统统下锅之后就是这个样子:

是甜得舌头都没知觉了呀,可那蔫呼呼热乎乎的东西就是没法抗拒。好几次烫到舌头,后来干脆勺到铁盘子里,凉了后直接端起盘子舔!
 

 

我们赶上了两点半以前的“午餐特价”,这顿包含消费和税大约50美元一个人。否则平时还要更贵些。但我会把它列为“享受”,不单单是吃顿饭而已咯。

 

My Yelp review on The Melting Pot:

I love the melting pot! The ambience of the restaurant, from its old library facade to old wooden floors and walls and stairs fusioned with modern art pieces make it great for special occasions! It’s one of the very few times where I actually enjoy the low light, despite the fact that it ruins my pictures… Needless to say it’s probably better suited for Valentine’s Day and Anniversaries than group get togethers and birthdays, because, well, the place is dim and quiet!

I’ve never had Swiss Fondue anywhere else so I don’t know how Melting Pot’s fondues stack up with other places’, but I just love the idea of the slow, 4-course meal dining style. You will spend about 2 hours here but you’ll keep having more to look forward to. It’s fun cooking your own food and if you’re lucky and get a good waiter, he might even play some tricks with ya! Any of the cheese and choclate fondues I’ve had have been wonderful, salads are good too. As for the main course, I highly recommend paying the extra bucks and getting the lobster tail, it’s totally worth it! If I have to pick one thing to be my most favorite, it’s the sauces. They bring them out like a painter’s palette, each and every one of them is delicious. My tip? Mixed them all together as one big dip and be pleasantly surprised! I wish they let you pack left overs in to go boxes because sometimes you can wear the most loose pants but still be super full in the middle of the 3rd course….

 

抱着鼓胀的肚子,大头和我一边商量着晚上不吃了,一边踱步到附近商场里的一家宠物店玩了半小时:

出来的时候果然大雪飘飘。要是还是晴空万里的话今天就更完美了!

Junz, Parker CO

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Wed Jan 4 2012

My Yelp Review:

My cousin works here so I might be slightly influenced, but Junz is a pretty interesting fusion (Japanese & French!?!) restaurant and according to him, a lot of hot chicks dine here at night (lol). We met the owner that night and he seemed really breezy, gave us free drinks and appetizers.

My cousin still ordered a lot though; the boys enjoyed the “Japanese Style Chicken Wings with Ginger Soy Marinade” a lot, us girls thought they were just OK. We didn’t like large wings, prefer them smaller. Then there was this Tuna salad app on mashed avocados, with some artichokes, the tuna was definitely raw. Not my cup of tea but it had a very nice presentation. Fried Calamari and Fried Shrimps were both tasty but not that different from each other. I made sure I got my Yellowtail Collar, as always, such a dish never disappoints! The chef also whipped up some so-called “New Style Salmon Sashimi” for our table, so it’s not just sliced raw fish, more like a fish version of Beef Tataki. But it still failed to turn me into a sashimi lover.

Then our jaws almost dropped when we saw two big plates of sushi, can’t even recall what they were but we thought we were getting full with the appetizers already. Anyway, sushi was good, but a lot of them were spicy, guess that’s what customers prefer nowadays…

Ready for the main course? Cuz ordered both steak dishes (Rib-Eye Steak and Filet Mignon), they were just OK. The boys again seemed to enjoy the crab mashed potatoes, but I thought they were on the watery side. For us girls, he picked Chilean Sea Bass (on Risotto) and Sword Fish (on Lobster Cream Fettuccini), both were very very good. One thing we all unanimously loved was the mushroom sauce on top of our steaks and fish, it really transformed the meat. My Sea Bass was a thick cut that’s golden fried yet very juicy inside, you just can’t get enough of it! Cousin told me the secret, orang-y sauce was a reduction of boiling a lot of fish bones, and to the owner, it’s like little drops of gold, so precious (and so delicious) that he doesn’t usually grant second helpings. The sauce definitely peaked the taste of the fish. I was surprised how well the fish paired with Risotto.

Would love to come back and try more dishes on the account that Cuz doesn’t order too much food, just enough so we could savor it all!

老表今天休假,邀大头和我去他现在打工的餐厅试鲜。 好久没去Aurora,都不知道要开哪条路。千挑万选结果上了要收费的470公路。不过那一路可真叫顺畅啊!先到了表哥家和胖小子侄子玩了一会儿。小家伙越来越结实了,幸好看到我们没哭。把他放到Tracy妈妈家之后我们又开了20多分钟才到餐厅。沿路那个叫空旷啊,怎么说米国地大物博呐。Aurora算是正在开发的新区,房子多商场也多,到处都是生机啊。

点完菜都八点了,多亏了表哥的同事醒目先给咱们上了个前菜,否则肯定饿昏过去!这个也不知道叫什么,美奶兹拌虾之类的吧,一小口一小口吃还满滋味的:

等寿司的时候看了看餐厅,还算有格调。听表哥说到晚上有很多美女光临。今晚隔壁几桌就有俩金发俄罗斯女郎!

一如往常他们夫妇俩点菜多到收不了手。他们男生都很喜欢而我们女生觉得一般般的鸡翅膀:

这个朝鲜蓟(Artichoke)生吞拿牛油果酱沙拉看起来漂亮,可我不太爱吃。跟热狗同一个原理:搭配多姿多彩但味道融合不到一起。

椒盐虾和鱿鱼就没啥特别啦:

照烧鱼嘴巴,我很喜欢的一道菜,外脆里嫩,极品呀:

新潮三文鱼刺身,大概就是潮在有这么多佐料吧,跟手卷差不多了:

看这两盘寿司就证明我之前没说错吧,四个人怎吃得下这么多!

不忙不忙,才轮到正餐呢!牛扒两式。表哥的是越熟越好:

大头的则是越生他越爱:

Junz的牛扒一般般,上面铺着的蘑菇还比较入味。

我们女生点鱼,本以为健康些,结果Tracy那份跟意面:

我的那份跟芝士饭。味道超好,可肚子已经很撑了。谁看得出来我这份是鲈鱼?口感超像鳕鱼,够肥美(即使打包回去第二天仍然很好吃!)听表哥说那个橙色只有一点点的浆汁是老板的精心配方,用一大堆各样的鱼骨熬上几小时的来的汁水,客人想要多点老板都不愿给的。简直比金子还矜贵!

甜品完全不是我的注意,芒果和紅豆口味的糯米茲雪糕,挺普通的:

虽然搞到挺晚的,今天确实够快活:

Chinese New Year Eve

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Chinese New Year Eve

妈妈在家忙了一天,做了一桌好菜。中午时候我有帮忙磨红豆沙,真是一项艰苦的任务。得出的结论是外面卖的豆沙都含惊人量的糖和油才会这么好吃!

晚饭其实还有萝卜糕和老火汤都忘了照。甜品是超级美味的限量版哈根达斯水蜜桃派口味雪糕!

Jan 22, 2012

豆沙包
饺子,白切鸡,炒年糕,烤三文鱼

Haagan Dazs Spiced Peach Crumble

安家

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有些天天用,有些几个月都不上去一次,但为了和朋友联系,还是开设了账号。如果你也有的话就加我吧!

Darkest Hours

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整整一个月了,这是目前为止我人生的最低潮。永远忘不了2009年6月25号这乌云密布的一天。枯燥的礼拜四下午,我在办公室机械地敲打键盘,手机响了,Julie给我带来晴天霹雳的消息。她问我有没有看Google,我不明白她的意思,好笑地问她看什么,她不可思议地说,难道你不知道? Michael Jackson被发现心脏停搏,正送往医院抢救! 我还记得前段时间她告诉我那些小道的恶劣造谣说MJ患皮肤癌,还什么要换肺,都是不真实的! 我就说,假的吧,又是谁在中伤? 况且据我所知,Michael 并没有心脏病。她建议我自己上网看。接下来的几个小时我只记得天空乌云密布,我的电话不断响起,看着Google News Results从两千个结果一下子跳到一万多个。Julie的女儿又打给我说他们已经宣布MJ死亡了!本应眼前一片黑的,但我消化不了,怎么可能这么快,这么轻易?
 
这阴森森的六月天是要衬托这个骇人听闻的消息吗?在同事面前,我什么都不能表露,只有无可奈何地笑,虽然背脊骨一阵凉意。马上想到上去特定的歌迷讨论网站看看其他MJ fans说些什么。大部分人的留言要么就是不信,要等正式的通告,要么就是拼命地祈祷,希望上帝不要夺走MJ的生命。不知道为什么我在心里狠命地咒骂,祈祷个鬼,你们的上帝是救不了他的,而且还是要他命的刽子手!
 
这该死的雨又重又大,仿佛在替我流泪。开车回家的途上只感受到震惊,不知所措,和僵硬。回到家,看到爸妈,鼻子还没来的及酸,眼泪就迸出来了,哭喊着“Michael死了! Michael死了!”
 
第二天,我向公司请了假待在家里,像没事人一样照常做平时休息在家时爱做的事情。仿佛只要我这么与外界断联一天的话,MJ就会复活。幸好周末忙着帮Allen搬家,让我没有空余时间发愣。一切落定后我开车回家,他们告诉我从隔壁车子望过来我的样子非常失落。怎么能不呢?其实MJ的死我在心里掂量过不知道多少次,想像着世人会有什么样的反应。可是那应该是很多年以后的事,那时MJ大概一早退了休,甚至退出娱乐圈。那么,还有人会怀念他么?没想到,这个恐怖的事实这么早就来袭,没有人来的及有心里准备,因为事先一点征兆都没有!
 
短暂的周末飞也似的没了,星期一我硬着头皮去上班,接受同事们投来的同情的目光和安慰的话语。他们都为我惋惜,知道我做好了一月份去伦敦看MJ演唱会的准备,如今这个梦想化为泡沫。我的脑袋嗡地一声,许多画面从眼前掠过。有个声音一直在响,“我再也听不到他唱歌了,怎么办?我再也听不到他天使般的声音了!”才发现,我爱他的歌,远胜于舞蹈。自从98年成为他的Fan以来从没停止过爱他,即使近十年MJ像隐士一样很少露面,我都支持他到底!没想过他还会再开个唱,在另外一个国家我也要去,否则再没机会。谁知真的再没机会,永远都没有了!如果可以交换,我宁愿一辈子看不到他也要他活得好好的。
 
那天在回家的路上,我终于嚎啕大哭了。
 
隔天在网上看到许多网友,名人,歌迷的留言,居然大家都这么缅怀MJ,就是对他一知半解的人都坦言觉得很突然和可惜。我的心情竟然转变得好些了,大概是同病相怜吧。同时又对那些疯狂抢购他CD的行为不以为然。人都死了,再登上排行榜第一有什么用?他们这不是“趁墟”么?真正的歌迷一定是他的每张专辑都收藏了的。我宁愿他每天只卖出5张唱片也要他好好的活在世上!同样的时间,同样地在回家的路上,我又哭了。
 
然后就是全世界的人怎么哀悼这颗陨落的巨星。默哀的默哀,扮致敬会的扮致敬会,大家纷纷涌到MJ的Hollywood Star,家门口,塑像前献花,送礼,签名留言。这一点都提不起我的兴致,人都去了,他们这是要做给谁看呢?他们的东西最后会落入谁的手中呢?一个礼拜后新闻报道说还不知道歌迷的礼物的最终安放处,我心里就想,“I thought so!”都是无意义的举动。爱他放在心里就足够了,难道我没做这些举动就是我少爱他了吗?他们这样自欺欺人的行为只是告诉了世人MJ有多少怀念他的人,可是你最想让他感觉到的人已经不在了,这样还有什么用?难道是我太愤世嫉俗了?
 
慢慢地,心痛有些变成恼怒。你怎么能够,怎么舍得离开这个世界?不顾我们歌迷那还有你的三个孩子呐!这样不顾一切地走掉,让许多敌对你的人看笑话,说你是“crash under pressure”,受不了演唱会的压力而垮的!就差这么一点,你就又可以表现给世人看你是真正的王!你那抢购一空的50场演唱会将会是空前绝后最盛大的comeback!一想到这些,我就很无奈,世事往往就是这样。人走了,什么都挽回不了。希望再没有人忍心对你刻薄了。
 
那几天每天都会落泪,不管是听了他的歌还是别的较为动情的音乐,抑或是在网上看到MJ最后排演的视频,很容易就触动已经非常敏感的哭神经。发泄后往往心情会格外地平静。为了不让自己继续钻牛角尖,我换了个想法。也许MJ的走是一种解脱,他在世时太多说不出的冤屈,或者他现在正在天堂月球漫步呢!?继续以孩子般的心创作着美丽的音乐呢!?想到如果演唱会顺利开幕,他却因为疲劳过度要取消几场,甚至在结束后才悴死的话岂不…. 一想到就后怕!
这样的自我安慰显然是不够的,我开始自欺欺人起来。一直没有MJ葬礼的计划,跟他同一天被宣布死亡的Farrah Fawcett早早地就举行了葬礼。MJ的家人又看起来并不是特别地伤痛,有没有可能这是Michael给我们的天大笑话呢?为了演唱会做宣传?虽然这样的闹剧会让他失去很多歌迷的信心,但我不care,我只要他好好的活着!这样想居然真的很受用,心情轻快许多,心中又有了期待。
 
直到葬礼的消息公布,他们居然以抽奖的方式决定哪些歌迷可以进入会场。Jennifer问我要不要到加州参加,送他最后一程。我说去了有什么用?不见得可以开棺瞻仰遗容,甚至棺材有可能是空的。而且MJ没了,听别人唱他的歌有什么意思?被抽到的机率小于百分之一,到时后去了,只能跟进不去的人在外面挤,被逼看无聊的模仿者跳熟悉的舞步。我不明白那些人怎么能够enjoy一个impersonator,还拼命照相,MJ是独一无二的呀!还有人被选中了,兴奋地在Twitter上告诉所有人,要知道,你被选中的是去观葬礼啊!换作是我,一定笑不出来!更有些无耻的人把入场券放到eBay上面高价出售,真没功德心!
 
还是情不自禁的看了葬礼的现场直播,哭得双眼像核桃一样肿。应该是情感渲染吧,居然有时撕心裂肺的想,没有了MJ,这世界还有什么意义?Michael的女儿在最后致词时泣不成声的画面让人心碎啊。我还是无法接受!葬礼完了,各大媒体还有世人不知道多久就会忘了MJ,虽然我永远也不会!
 
葬礼让我有了closure,自从那天以后我再也没流泪了,只在读到关于MJ的轶事或在电视上偶然看到他的片段时深深的叹气,感到无比惋惜。我想我会grieve eternally。对于我,MJ其实只存在于我的脑中和电视屏幕里,我都难过成这样;那些与他有过接触的fans不知痛心疾首成什么样!怪不得还有人自杀了呢!唉,MJ就是一个耀眼的奇才,来地球上短暂地转了一圈让世人目睹他的光辉后离去了。我一直以为他是非人类,连我爸都说过他们应该会在他去后把他的骨架保存起来,研究一下这个怪才的结构究竟是怎么回事!如果真这样就好了,虽然我明白他的传奇和他留给我们的财富会一直流传下去,但是有个实物的话会更添永恒! (又在幻想了!事实上,为了验尸,他们都不知道把MJ的身体弄成怎么样了,听说他的部分大脑被保管起来作为毒素验证的媒体呢!可怜的Michael~~)
 
幸好在这十年里,我寻得一些其他的爱好,例如电影,Friends,独立音乐等等,让我可以打发掉没有MJ(之前只是没有他的消息,现在则是没有了他,呜呜~~)的时光。并且我相信以后还会发现更多值得欢喜和欣赏的talent,只是,为什么我的心像穿了个大窟窿?